Sometimes I can’t tell what I hate more about my years of alcohol addiction. The years wasted or the fat tire around my waste that remains. It’s hard to say, because this stomach of mine gives me the absolute blues. I’ve tried exercise, personal trainers, dieting and just ugh. Nothing has given me the results I’m … Continue Reading

Remember completing the “Cost of Addiction” exercise in treatment? It’s definitely a favorite of recovery group leaders. Where you snatch the worksheet and scribble down all the money you wasted over the years on addiction. Oh, and poor choices, wrong moves, erratic behavior. Basically any and everything responsible for your monetary disasters. I use to worry over it all, … Continue Reading

Raise your hand if you’ve never asked God to save you from drugs or alcohol. Right now. Raise it. Okay you’re excused. The rest of you, let’s give a huge sigh of annoyance and an intolerant eye roll for the Bible trumper, oops, my bad, thumper who points to their Bible and claims “it says right here that if you … Continue Reading

Someone needs to read this. I can’t recall how many days I let slip away when I was using. Or better put, how many times I used a rainy day as an excuse to wallow in self pity and guilt and drink, drink, drink. My intolerance was so out of control. Any slight environmental shift … Continue Reading

Today would have been day 15 but she relapsed. My new friend, the one who asked me to help her stay sober got 15 days in and started her morning off with a drink. When I got the text I knew it was going to be all bad. “I been up since 3 am and … Continue Reading